hmmmm interesting

here are a few things that are worth checking out.
a) scott's blog entry dated jan 30th 2006
b) this advert it's pretty amazing...well sorta neat......sounds like

enjoy!

some thoughts on happiness

Ok, my blog has been mostly pictures with quotations recently featuring me drunk. I suppose this is a reflection of the way my life has been going, therefore my blog has been honest, it hasn't been deep and intellectual for the sake of being deep and intellectual. This also means I haven'’t written much in the past little while and my brain is feeling mushy and under used; my vocabulary is slipping away from me, my logic and thought processes have gone out the window and I generally feel rusty.

My life has been pretty great, I have hung out with friends, seen and done loads of new things and I have been generally happy. Today I started to think about my state of well being and I think that, that is what I'm going to write about.

For those of you who may have read my blog or who know me may know I was not always this happy, content and comfortable with myself, with my oddities. I went through a time that began almost 3 years ago where I was not happy with myself, was not comfortable with who I was and tried to hide my oddities; tried to hide myself, tried to become what I thought was right. I tumbled in slow motion down a circular staircase, losing a piece of who I was with each bump until I landed at the bottom a hollow lump of a person. Not myself, only my shell in a crumpled heap. I was not brave, I did not hold opinions, I could not tell you what I liked and disliked, I sat silently at social gatherings not knowing what to say, not thinking what I had to say mattered. I had no feeling, no passion, I was apathetic ... I was nothing. I was scared, terrified of dealing with things that should have been dealt with before. Issues that I had no time to deal with or had been rushed through not giving them the time they disserved. Excitement made me think it was ok, that I was ok. When I hit the bottom, landed in that heap, I didn'’t not like who I had become, this apathetic nothing. It was not the fault of those who witnessed it, it was the fault of those who made me that way; those who came before, who restricted me, controlled me, who treated me like I was nothing. Those who told me my opinions were wrong and my tummy was too round. I was left at the bottom, my hollow crumpled shell, I was left alone, I had to be.

I had to be made to pick myself up and slowly being to crawl up that staircase by myself. Slowly picking up the pieces that were me, replacing them as I ascended, leaving ones behind that I no longer needed or wanted. Resting to fine tune some parts, to improve them make them part of a better me. I am here now at the top of that staircase again, a better me. A me who has opinions, who has likes and dislikes, who (I'’m sure a few of you wish) would sit silently at social gatherings. I have feelings, I have passion (although there is always room for more), I am no longer apathetic and I even have a few hobbies. The me at the top has been stuffed full of feelings, opinions, thoughts, likes, dislikes, words, wonder, confidence, self-worth. I am not a nothing anymore. I am not scared of who I am or who I may become. I even talk to strangers occasionally! I love who I am, I love my oddities; they should never be hidden. I am glad I had to climb back up by myself; I don'’t think I would have done it if I had help. Although I did have help, help that was greatly appreciated and will never be forgotten. I will be there to help you as you helped me. Thank you.

Recipe for FUN!!!!!

OK I realize I have been highly neglectful of my poor blog of late, so here are some more pics from last Friday's debacle.
The evening started out innocently enough, a few games of pool.....
Don't let this picture mislead you, my pool skills mainly focus on setting you up for your next shoot.


Now this girl, she can play pool!
My drink count after leaving the pool hall: 3 gin and tonic and 1 tequila rose

Next stop......the bar. Very cool place, good music, fun people....what else do you need, oh yeah beer!

Here is a lesson on how to drink beer:
Carefully!Aways accessorize!


Properly...notice the pinky!
Drink count: 1 bottle and 1.5 Pints of beer and 2 more shoots of Tequila Rose (don't forget the drinks at the pool hall)

Once blind drunk take loads of pictures (77 to be exact, here are but a few)



Always model friends hat and glasses (glasses are mine, they're new, you like?)












Harass boy by taking loads of picture and call him a loser for hiding! hehehe!








Make friends with the band....ok nicki already knew groovy, so really I just made friends.

Overall impression of the evening.............

WOOOHOOOO!!!!

Please be advised recipe may cause an overwhelming need to be sick and eat greasy hangover brunch.
For more information on the recipe provided above and further testimonials as to it's effectiveness please visit nicki's blog.

January 15, 1929

On this date Dr. Martin Luther King Jr was born. I had (ignorantly) never listened to him speak or looked closely at his life. I knew he was one of the founders of the American Civil Rights Movement and that his work for all disadvantaged Americans was truly honourable. However, being Canadian, I always saw it as an American holiday that really didn't affect me. As I awoke this morning they were playing the "I Have a Dream" speech. Maybe it was my state of semi-consciousness, maybe it was Monday, but whatever it was, I stayed in bed and listened. It was inspiring. He was a truly visionary man, who through non-violent action changed the United States. I am not articulate enough to truly do him justice so I will let him speak for himself.
Listen and be inspired. If he was able to change ideas that had been ingrained in southern culture, since the beginning of the south, what could we do today?

I Have a Dream Text/Audio (click on the word speech)
I Have a Dream Text Only

Pretty

This is a tapestry I bought last summer while visiting my parents. I love it. I loved it the first time I saw it. It makes me smile.

Skating

We went DJ Skating at Harbourfront. They played Pingu!!!

People skating and the Power Plant gallery.

Spinning!

Skating was fun, thanks to Scott for organizing it!

Scrabble

Jonathan, Liz and my board. Notice "Grounded" played for 77 points




Scott, Edie and Dorian's Board. "oral" and "squirt" on the same board.

Addin' up the points

The last chip.

Tagged!!!!

Alright, I've been tagged! Thanks Nicki ! Blargh!!!
Here goes, but I don't know if I have 3 things nobody knows about...hmmmm............. do I want you to know 3 things about me you don't already know.

1) I make cookie dough soley for the purpose of eating it. I only do this occasionally now (annual event), I don't use eggs for obvious reasons, and sometimes I just cream butter and sugar and add vanilla. Gross I know!

2) I "talk" to my grandma who died when I was 11 when I have a problem. Ok it's more I talk and she listens, but it's comforting.

3) Crap....... Alright, sorry about this, but it's all I could think of........I shit and shower, I've been converted.

Now I have to tag 3 people........Sorry, I really do apologize.
Liz,
Stroker
Anemone
SORRY!!!!!!!!

KIDS ROCK!!!

Ok as you know, well if you read below you know, it was recently my birthday. My class (I'm a teacher for those who don't know) gave me a birthday report card.....it rocks!!!!


And this was what was inside:

I like "Candy Liking Skills" and "Crazy Skills". I did well in "Drama and Dance" but I knew I would. I really need to work on my " Controlling Laughter" I only got a C! This was done by a group of 8 and 9 year olds. Not bad......my class is such nerds ( in the good way)
I gotta love them!

new years was good i think?

Exhibit A:

In addition to 4 Blanche de Chambly and some champagne.....yummmy!!!

Exhibit B: Tipsy


My friends from Junior High (Jen, Jen, Katherine and Moi) This was just the beginning.

Exhibit C:
Happy New Year!!!!!!! Ok I know this was 4 beers and some chanpagne!

Exhibit D:


I'm still looking ok here. As you can see in the lower right corner, I got leid; it was pretty good, had some nice nylon flowers, a nice balance of colors.

Exhibit E:YIKES! That's rough looking! Everybody.....Puke...2, 3.
That was my new years, it was good.....I think. Saw a bunch of old friends, drank, was merry and i hung out in a garage. I couldn't resist this picture of my friend Jen's fiance (pictured with the other jen not the one he's marrying)

Well that was New Years in a nut shell. Not the best but pretty damn good!

The chronicles of Vancouver: The Trees, Colin Firth and The Raincoat

The Trees:
Well I arrived home in Vancouver on the 23rd of December and as requested the tree was not decorated. I know it's a childish but it wouldn't be Christmas if I didn't decorated the tree. I woke up on the 24th and decorated the tree. I was nice, I left all my sisters ornaments for her to put on. We went to pick my sister up at the airport, she was flying in from London, England. Anyway after a terrify drive home (dad can't drive), we were in the kitchen discussing my sisters promotion when there was a terrible crash......down came the Christmas tree. There were ornaments from my parents first Christmas....37 years ago and some ornaments my parents had given me over the years......smashed. I'll admit it, I cried, more for my mum and the thought that I knew she thought Christmas was ruined. Lucky, all was not lost, there were loads of ornaments left and my sisters were all in tact....they weren't on the tree! So a few tears and some hot glue later, we had tree!!!!

Then I believe it was the 4th of January. My sister, dad and I went for dinner, came home and my sister and I went to get a video. We were gone all of 15 mins and this is what happened!


It took out the power, phone, and cable......for my whole street! And landed where we park the cars! Anyway, that's the trees!

Colin Firth:
I went to see a Picasso exhibit with my mum. I was avoiding the overly patronizing tour, when I notice a rather attractive 35ish man. As I got closer he began to look very familiar........he looked like.....could it be.....Colin Firth......


Looking very much like that! Quite nice in person!

The Raincoat:
Long and the short of it........I didn't have one!!!!!!

More to come.........

my birthday...

Today is my birthday and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I wonder how I got so old, where did the time go? I can remeber being a kid like it was yesterday....not 20 years ago. I'm not sad, I'm not happy, I have no desires for the next year (except that it's not tragic).......I guess I'm comfortable. I guess that's good!
Happy 31st Birthday me!
love ya!